Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Yeah, I'm a freak.

I'm way too old to be tickled about the pink Happy Bunny socks David brought home for me last night. They say, "Hi. Cram it." I actually stomped my feet in excitement and laughed my ass off. I'm totally amused by them despite the fact that they are pink, and I rarely adorn myself in colors, let alone pink. I'm pleased to own a pair of grumpy ass socks.

I just got back from having lunch with Chris, and as usual, we had Thai. I let him decide what I was having for lunch. Being the control freak that I am, it's very unusual for me to allow anyone to pick my food, but I trust him. It's very relaxing for me to spend time with someone who I feel perfectly comfortable allowing to make even minor decisions that impact me in some way. Usually when I loosen up and allow others to be in charge, I'm disappointed with the outcome. While I generally don't make a big deal out of it, inside my head I'm irritated I just didn't do whatever it was myself since I could have done it better (or so I generally think). Silly, I'm sure, but true nonetheless. However, since I'm usually more concerned with peacekeeping measures, I can't be bossing everyone around ALL the time. I try to restrain myself as much as I can without losing my mind. As a result of this combination of internal control freak and external peacekeeper, I spend a whole lot of time feeling vaguely (and sometimes very) frustrated and disappointed.

What the hell does this have to do with knitting? Just one of the reasons I enjoy knitting so much is because I am completely in charge of my knitting. I don't have to live with mistakes made by others. I don't have to compromise to be nice. I can be as anal retentively perfectionsistic as I want (or not), and no one stops me or gets in my way or makes me feel guilty and bitchy. I don't have to listen to any moaning or "just leave it, it's fine" crap. I don't have to live with disappointment and that's just damn grand.

Oh, yeah. I'm planning to attend my very first Stitch N' Bitch this evening. It's in the next town over, which is kind of a snotty locale. I'm rather nervous. What if they hate me? What if I hate them? What if no one talks to me? Logically I'm sure it'll be just fine since I'm not socially retarded and it will be nice to meet some people that share at least one of my interests. And if they're all vile, I can just never go back, I s'pose. Wish me luck.

3 Comments:

At 6:06 PM, Blogger Leah said...

Have a blast at your Snb!! I have been to a few and most the people are way cool or at least seem way cool since they are so into knitting. I did meet a few snobs but they seemed to stick together!

YAY for your socks as well! Aren't the simple things in life great!

 
At 9:24 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hope you had as much fun last night as I did! None of the others have discovered the fun of self-striping yarn yet--I LOVE that Devan pattern and probably have to make it soon.
Hope you come back!
Barb

 
At 9:33 AM, Blogger Lisa said...

Barb! Yes, I did have lots of fun. I found a really simple How To Crochet manual that has a bunch of great diagrams that I think I shall throw in my bag for Tiffany and Fran.

And I'm glad you went to look at Devan. The pattern is darling, isn't it? Perhaps next week I'll work on a sleeve instead.

Can't wait to see your finished striped sweater. :) See you next week!

 

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